| I am eating toast WITHOUT butter |
[Mar. 20th, 2026|07:54 am] |
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| | my little fantasy - 4 tune fairytales | ] |
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hello world... I am pretty bored right now. Today is an inset day, that means I don't go ta skewl. I just bought some books on html and css coding, believe me the kuona kuona website WILL be up!!!! hahhahaahhahahhahahahahh!!!!!!!! My computer science teacher is gonna fucken LOVE me. I love computer science lessons, Its a shame I just suck at coding. NOT FOR LONG THOUGH!!!! PASSION!!!!!
oh yeah, I got my gsce results and I am doing art and computer science! and obviously maths and english and science.. ugh
right now I'm playing on picmix and making the worst images ever of myself
  
Im gunna take my sister to all the spots I hangout in in town. I'll be sure to take some piccies |
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| xoxo |
[Mar. 20th, 2026|01:54 am] |
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| | My Den | ] |
I've got something very special for y'all!!! A STORYYYYYY!!! Picture this, it's Wednesday night, and I'm beginning to head to bed after doing some homework until I get an email notification on my cell out-of-the-blue from... CHICKEN SMOOTHIE, of all websites?! You know, that one petsite that's boring as balls and really fucking green? Yeah, that one! The email had no details of what the private message from a mod was about and asked me to login; so I did. And HOLY FUCKING SHIT I was pissed!!! This mod asked me to remove my link to my website since it wasn't "kid-friendly" and sum other bullshit; they provided me a list of straight-up nothingburgers and nitpicks which wasn't an issue for a YEAR btw!!! I was shocked and wanted to defend my art and my self-expression from this unfair attack by some random loser; so I explained myself to the best of my ability, and it pretty much seemed like this moderator had bricks for brains since he replied with this generic NPC ass response that failed to see my perspective... Great! I yapped some more but pretty much just gave up, and removed the link... BOOOOOOO YOU STINK!!! >:[
Just go have a read... |
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| when in doubt she will just get both |
[Mar. 17th, 2026|09:30 pm] |
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| |  drained | ] |
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| | my scary girl cave | ] |
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| | creatures of the night | ] |
hello hello.. um, i don't know where or how to start this, but today was good.. kind of. today was my honor roll so i didn't have classes today (though i did have to attend the honor roll.. obvi) and, well, i got high honor! i kind of wish i was able to get academic excellency but high honor is good too. after the honor roll my dad took me to eat some really good mexican food. it's nice eating something that isn't the same rice with nothing or mystery meat i eat everyday... though, i'm kinda depressed too, i guess? well, maybe i shouldn't use "depressed" but you get it. i haven't had the motivation to do much of anything lately. i barely eat, sleep, shower, go to the bathroom.. i only do those things "as-needed", now. i just stay in bed isolated from the rest of the world for most of my day now. i don't have much interest in many of the things i used to love, either. it's just so fucking.. pathetic, i guess? hell, i can't even find the motivation to draw! and when i do, it just comes out all wrong. today i was trying to start the drawing i wanted to make for Anouk after making a couple of drafts but it just looked awful. it was horribly planned out, i wasn't confident with my strokes, and so much more.
i've been having tons of intrusive thoughts too. real awful stuff. i don't know.. maybe it's just lack of sleep or something. i do really miss being able to get things done and actually like them, though.. i hate that i'm losing passion and interest to do anything now. i miss being a normal, functioning human being who actually HAD hobbies. this is for sure just a phase though, i'll probably get over it next week.. maybe? hopefully so, i hate feeling like this... |
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| Class was boring and the sky is blue!!!! |
[Mar. 17th, 2026|07:50 pm] |
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| | Centhron - Aeterna 6 | ] |
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| | My Den | ] |
Hellooooooo, peeps!!! I had my showreel portfolio class today, and I was bored as fuck and more interested in doodling shit in MS Paint and worrying about my careers' homework that I have to give in today :/ I swear no one in my class wanted to do this portfolio development bullcrap other than one of my pookies (which isn't shocking since she's big into wanting to go into the industry), and even then, that's because she knows what she wants to do in life. I'm also worried about my dissertation that's due in on Monday... Like I know my topic inside-and-outside; and I've got the research but still... STRESSFUL!!!! At least my parents somewhat believe in me... I guess? But after all this is over I'll be FREE! Kinda... heh... └|ﾟεﾟ|┐
Also can I just say that Centhron's fucking fire because HOLY SHIT this band roxxxxx!!! <3 Anyway here's the goofy doodles; it's Seth getting ragebaited by Twoface, lulz. Sorry it looks so shitty, I had to use a mouse since the computer room has no drawing tablets, and I was trying to not get caught. Linkie~! |
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| Sorry for the spam T_T |
[Mar. 16th, 2026|11:02 am] |
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| | School.. shivering and crying | ] |
I’m so scared right now, it started with a surprise math test second period on a topic I wasn’t even there for. I started having a small one of my spaz tweaker meltdowns, until the teacher sent me up to isolation to calm down. Guess what happened then? THE FIRE ALARM RANG. By then I was having a full blown panic attack, I couldn’t speak, I couldn’t move, I couldn’t hear anything but the loud fire alarms ringing. It was a nightmare. Just the thought of standing in a soggy field with blaring alarms and the entire thousands of students running all over the place almost gave me a stroke.
so yeah, teachers were screaming at me for not moving I think, and next thing I know the muddafucken HEADTEACHER was there to yell at me too. He said he was going to call my dad to pick me up , and I shouted “no!!!” Because if my dad misses another day of work we’re literally going to be evicted from the flat he lives in, and he’ll be homeless. I don’t know what to do, he called my dad to pick me up anyway and now I’m panicking over that too.
and my makeup was so good too this morning.. and it’s completely ruined
also, am I the only one that finds it weird that the headteacher of my all girls school is a man?
I’m in the car now.. listening to the gravitation soundtrack. I look like the final boss of a game called Smokey eye chronicles
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| good morning america |
[Mar. 15th, 2026|02:39 pm] |
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| | my ipod on shuffle... still looking for that one song I told ang about | ] |
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| | bed... covered with straw from the haybales | ] |
Howdy, yall! (get it... america)
I just came back from playing around in the haybales with my sister. I took some videos on my camera but I'll link them here l8r cuz I cannot be arsed to now.
I got my wonky headphones replaced, but my ipod is still a total fire hazard. when I was charging it in the car with a battery pack I couldn't stop daydreaming about it bursting in2 flames and me yanking it as far as possible out the window as I could. Fun... I hope I get to do that someday
Also, I'm trying to delete wlm messenger to get an older msn, because my messages never send to Biz or Nikki and I think it's just a wlm problem. so If you have any issues talking to me later today just hit me up on.. deviantart profile comments.. and I'll TRY patch yahoo. of course, that is if I can find a way to delete windows live messenger. it doesn't even show up on the uninstalling tab! grrr.
err.. what else? I wanna draw Nikki's skinned chicken cat man juha and his new pet shower curtain. I totally ship them, is that wrong? X_X
to end off, I'm totally fangirling over that icon Bizette made for me just now. GAZE UPON HIM 8D |
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| Performing some traffic maintenance today |
[Mar. 14th, 2026|01:04 pm] |
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Happy Saturday!
I'm going to be doing a little maintenance today. It will likely cause a tiny interruption of service (specifically for www.dreamwidth.org) on the order of 2-3 minutes while some settings propagate. If you're on a journal page, that should still work throughout!
If it doesn't work, the rollback plan is pretty quick, I'm just toggling a setting on how traffic gets to the site. I'll update this post if something goes wrong, but don't anticipate any interruption to be longer than 10 minutes even in a rollback situation.
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[Mar. 13th, 2026|08:01 am] |
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| | My Den | ] |
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| |  calm | ] |
This is for anyone who needs it! (AKA me since i forgor sometimes...) :D
Escargot - xt0rmentedxx@escargot.chat
Crosstalk - xt0rmentedxx for Yahoo & B1zette_Official@proton.me for MSN
Buzzd - xx_mechanicalhearts_xx (Yahoo)
IRC - Bizette (You can find at roses.retronode.org; usually in the #retronode channel)
Email - B1zette_Official@proton.me |
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| towtally bored |
[Mar. 13th, 2026|07:12 am] |
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| | awake | ] |
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| | CO.CO.RO - DJ sharpnel | ] |
My sister did some weird musical performance last night, that wuz cringe. and now I'm tired.... luckily, today is a therapy day, so I get a half day of school and have moar time to stay at home. I have no lessons either.. so doodling all day it is! If I can. I need a new sketchbook T_T
I wish I could bring my laptop to school, but it's so chunky it can't fit in my bag! depressing. or maybe it can fit, I haven't tried yet
as you can see, I don't have much interesting to talk about
I DID save a baby shark washed up on the beach 8D |
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| bored... |
[Mar. 10th, 2026|06:25 pm] |
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| | swimminh in a massive fucken pool of cash | ] |
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| | allright now here we go- the prophet | ] |
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| |  aggravated | ] |
AUUUUHGGHHH!!!!! the new headphones I got like.. two weeks ago already struggle playing audio in both my ears! GRRRR!!!!!! why do wired headphones suck so much?! whatever.. I got like a 6 month warranty on dese. once they completely stop functioning I'll replace them. until then I can only listen to my ipod when it's at a certain angle, and all my good songs r on there dammit!!! Maybe the wire is breaking because of how i shove it in my bag pocket. oops.. but who doesn't?! you think companies would be a bit more attentive about these issues
in the meantime, me and my sister are slowly building up candysweets land lore, (the hallucination world ringo dreams up) this is so useless XD.. candysweetsland has more depth than the world my characters actually live in! I should make a map for funnies. at least I have some more backgrounds to draw for my characters
In math class today, There was a question like "yuri rolled a biased dice 500 times what is the experimental probability of it being 4" or some shiz like that, the teacher read it off and hetalia bdsm girl very loudly shouted "ONE TWO THREE WE WANT YURI!"
....the class went dead silent..... T_T ....
and so does this post, tata!
Here's a bottle of piss some jerk just left at the end of my street that has been there 4 months, plus some more piccies for good luck
   
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| i am back and i am extremely online WHY AM I GETTING RANDOM PAINS WTF. |
[Mar. 8th, 2026|10:44 pm] |
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| | my cave | ] |
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| | bis - Eurodisco | ] |
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| |  geeky | ] |
well today i just got back from my vacay! it was pretty fun but i have some mixed feelings 'bout it, though that you guys can ask me on IM (or i'll just post about it later.. i just don't feel like it right now), and i'm glad to be home now. nothing like the weird mess of plushies and cardboard on my bed and the stress of having to finish some projects before next week or else i might fail my class/freak out because i can't finish personal projects ;)
anywhoooo, about my vacation.. well, like i said, it was fun. when i arrived and went to my grandparents' house to stay with them, some of our other family were waiting for us and greeted us with a big old cake! it was very good. i also got to *finally* sleep in my own room away from my parents, neat! i always had to sleep with my parents whenever i visited for some reason. i was kind of scared i had to sleep with my grandma since she used to sleep in the room i was staying at, but i guess she's sleeping with my grandpa now? oh, whatever. at least i get my own room to sleep in.. AND NO CURFEWS FOR ME!!! ^_________^ anyway... i met up with a lot of family i don't/can't get to talk much with, some of them were kinda dry. especially the guys in the family. i went to some pretty neat places, for example a few fancy-schmancy restaurants, and also ate a lot of fried chicken and even went to bathe in one of the shortest rivers in the world! it was SO cold. like, ice cold, no joke.. oh, also, that day for some reason we met up with some random dudes that we don't (well, 'we' as in all of us except my uncle) that i think work as police and hanged out with them. it was.. fun? i didn't talk to them so i can't really say much :P
after that i can't really say much, though. we went to restaurants, bought some good shit at the supermarkets.. did you know that in the dominican supermarket chain 'Bravo' they sell completely, 100% natural, straight from the pulp, without a hint of dilution orange juice? for like, 9 (american) bucks? i know it sounds expensive, yes, but you literally get the weird fake cheap stuff for around that price in some places now. IT'S VERY WORTH IT. or you could, you know, just make it yourself.. oranges and orange juice makers aren't that expensive, at least i hope so. ugh, i'm rambling. anywho, while i was away i started to make a little drawing of Neesh on my phone (god, i hate drawing on my phone. too much button and so little canvas), i think i'll post it tomorrow. i also have a ton of school doodles i think i'll put up in my junk archive on my site, only problem is scanning them all.. *sigh* oh well. guess i've got my work cut out for me.
anyway! here's some shit doll i did at some doll game on doll divine. hhehehehe.. i like dress-up games, yes.. here's the link for the game if you're interested, also click the thumbnail to see the img in mildly better quality. yaaaaaaay. BAAAAAAA.
but, yeah. good to be home. i missed you guys!
(why do almost all my entries have the same 3 paragraph format? wtf) |
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