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e1ght88n [Feb. 18th, 2026|01:33 am]
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hi guys.
today is my birthday.
there's a storm outside right now.
the rain is harsh.
i can hear the loud thunder.
i can see it,
as it lights the night sky.
its pretty cold.

i'm 18 years old now.
my life feels like it's moving foward all too quickly.
but im sure im not alone on this.
still, i keep thinking on memories of when i was a child.
i look back and i realize just how much of my past i have burned.
but playing with fire burns you, too.

i can hardly recognize that version myself half the time..
it was all so long ago...

i looked in the mirror after all these years, im trying to learn to smile at myself.
i want to love myself again.
i feel happy...


i didn't intend on this writing to seem depressing, 
my life has been pretty great recently.

guess im just in a thinking mood...


forever bloodthirsty,
vishnu tai-mei.
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[User Picture]From: [personal profile] porcelainlamb
2026-02-18 01:54 pm (UTC)

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Happy birthday, Vishnu! Don't worry, it's not just you whose been feeling this way recently. All week I've been feeling disconnected from everyday life; and I still don't know why really... Everything just is like white noise to me atm.
[User Picture]From: [personal profile] p3ych0sis
2026-03-02 11:41 pm (UTC)

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yeahhh things can be a real drag at times. but we shall march forward ..
[User Picture]From: [personal profile] anti_clockwork
2026-02-18 02:42 pm (UTC)

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happy birthday man! ha-ha, you're OLD. okay, not really, but... uh, what was i gonna say again? but man, this entry really hit close to home.. i've been feeling real lonely these days. all of my old friends moved on pretty quick from being friends with me.. we're still friends, but they probably don't even think about me anymore. i don't know, i feel like saying this stuff makes me selfish or something. but i hope this week treats you better than it has for me, Vish! :-) hope you had a great birthday, and that you get to eat as much cake/whatever other dessert you like as you want. <3

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[User Picture]From: [personal profile] p3ych0sis
2026-03-02 11:40 pm (UTC)

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thanks buddeh !!! i certainly did. i devoured lots of my cake. also i do hope things are going well! i can certainly relate to losing friends.. part of life i guess